Authentic light comes from committed shadow work.
Every experience of unsafety is stored in the shadow of our subconscious. Our ego wants to suppress and hide what’s difficult to face, but our soul wants to evolve and asks us to look at our oblivious patterns.
Anything that threatens our nervous system’s feeling of safety can be called a trauma, no matter how big or small. We unconsciously attract opportunities to face our traumas. That’s why we are drawn into the same situations over and over again until we reprogram ourselves.
If we are unaware of our triggers, our subconscious will run the show and react in the same way as it always has. The subconscious is formed during our early years and these reactions were meant to protect us in our childhood, when we didn’t know how to properly process our external and internal environment.
But we are more mature now and we are ready to respond to situations in more mindful ways than the common fight / flight / freeze / fawn. We all have work to do here, because we all carry trauma.
To reshape the subconscious we have to become conscious about it. When we become aware of what triggers our traumas, most of the job is already done. Healing will start. Awareness shines light on the shadow. The process takes a lot of self-compassion, as the old ego crumbles.
To hold more light we need to be willing to look deeper into our shadow. Illuminating our darkest caves. There is no other way around, the only path is within.